Surge

I'm currently waiting for Stacy's dance group to come on. I think it's going to be good! With the amount of time they've put into it, I would be surprised if it turned out bad. Everyone here is asian, and it's hip-hop – promising.

Today was pretty rad: I got to go sample sale shopping with Gina! It was really great to hang out just us two. I got 4 things, but Gina lost her "juju" and didn't buy anything! She was so sad, it was a total bummer.

This bladder infection just wont give up, ugh. 

When I got home, I got this random surge of emotion. Negative emotion. I hated it. It lasted a few seconds and I didnt know whether to cry or scream, so I just layed in bed and experienced it. Not fun. I hope it doesn't happen again. I don't need any new emotional issues. 

I couldn't hold back and I texted Ty again. I feel so powerless over myself. I'm trying to take control of my life, but I can't even control my own thoughts and actions, and I'm trying so hard. I am finding good distractions, but they aren't helping me move forward and out of this weird place that I'm in. I hope I can change that soon, or at least change my perception of myself.